"If I am not for myself, then who will be for me? And if I am only for myself, then what am I? And if not now, when?"

Saturday, 11 August 2007

Emotional day back at work



I went to back to work twice in the last two days to see what everyone was up to and see how everyone was.   It was also a really unexpected and a nice surprised to see Eileen (manager from the US office) there in the Melbourne office.   I attended a meeting where she demonstrated to everyone what they had been working on in the US and the guys here demonstrated the new developments that they had been working on.   We then went out for lunch. 

When I got home I was emotionally drained and cried a lot.  Up until I got sick, work was such a huge part of my life.  Most of my decisions in life over the last fifteen years or so were based on the direction I wanted to go with my career.    I completed my Masters degree a few years ago while I was working and always had a big picture plan of where I was heading.  The technologies I focussed on while I was studying and the direction I was going at work was finally starting to come into line.  I think before I went into hospital I was the happiest I'd ever been at work and I felt that all my hard work over the years was finally paying off.   Also Patrick had just moved here and everything was just perfect ...and then it all just ended in a sudden. 

I didn't expect today that it would hit me so hard like that.

I also caught up with Smadar today who was visiting from Queensland.  I took her to Loco for coffee and Julie and Viv came met us there.  I was feeling a lot of pain and when I got home Patrick reminded me that I forgot to change my morphine patch which is supposed to last three days.  It's times like that when I remember that I still haven't fully recovered from the surgery.

Photos:
1. Me holding an iPhone.  Eileen had one and they are very cool.
2. Julie, Smadar, Viv and myself having coffee at Loco's

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Anita,

Just keeping in touch. Getting nervous for St. Kildas up coming game. Sounds as if you are keeping yourself busy which is fantastic. Would love to see you and Patrick up our way some time soon and you know there's always a bed for you guys. Still feeling high after my Melb. visit. Will be in touch soon and send my love to your folks.

Love Igor

Batya's Rainbow Blog said...

Hi there - nice to see pictures of you and Julie and Smadar and Viv having fun. Haven't spoken to Paul since he's back but will soon.
Hope you are feeling good and getting better. Think about you often.
Love,
Batya

Anonymous said...

Hi Anita,
Sorry to hear that you felt drained after the visit to work. :( I hope you're feeling better now--take care and keep your spirits up!

I missed speaking to you everytime you came to office--I didn't go to the bowling and the only other time I saw you was during the massages. It's nice to see you blogging here, I've added you to my blog reads.

-Suchi